Yeah been an on/off problem of mine for half my life now, something about both the nicotine and the ritual. I haven’t really found anything to replace it with, chewing gum kinda does it a little bit but it’s not quite the same.
I used to take my glasses cleaning cloth and roll it up like if I was rolling a cigarette, then run my thumb and finger down it because it has that nice velour(?) texture, that’s another one that relaxed me but I haven’t done it in forever.
Spotify supports one of the companies building drones to help defend Ukraine? I don’t see the downside to this. Without companies like them, Ukraine would absolutely not be able to hold the line. If anything, as someone living in neighbouring Poland, it makes me feel much better about the idea of renewing my sub.
I do understand the reluctance to support any sort of defense/military company, but come on, helping defend Ukraine (and by extension, the rest of Europe) is a little different than the companies spending billions on weapons to be used in the middle east.
I seem to recall the one for Root was particularly bad, can’t remember for the others.
I struggle with this a lot, it doesn’t help that I have crippling social anxiety so I already feel nervous about reaching out, then proceed to forget, then feel 10x as nervous because I feel guilty about my delayed response. All of that results in me not responding for even longer and making it worse.
Then I finally respond, feel so rubbish about the whole thing that it takes me forever to respond again.
So many of my online friendships have turned into basically penpal type arrangements because I get so delayed with my responses because of this.
19,483 here, and that’s just my main email. 💀
For what it’s worth I think it’s just because I use email in my browser and with no notifications, so I don’t feel the urge to clear my notifications like I would with a phone app. Also at some point once it got stupidly large I decided I wanted to see how high it could get just for fun.
I just realised typing itself almost functions like a fidget toy to me. Sometimes I just write a comment or type just for the sensation. Especially feels good to try and type as fast as I can.