I don’t know where the purpose of my life is. I looked where I last saw it and it isn’t there anymore. It’s like losing your keychain. All I can do is hope I forgot it somewhere at home because I sure can’t go outside without it. I wanna find joy in things again, and it is so difficult to get you shit together when everything feels so meaningless.
The more I look for the keys the more I fear I lost them for good. Which makes me not wanna search for them at all and just distract myself with random stuff. I think that describes my situation quite well.
Anyway I’m sad. But I hope you all are doing okay!
I feel you. I still haven’t found my keys as you say. I tried different kinds of work but it all crashed and burned. Then depression and now that I have gotten that in check I still don’t know what I want or even can do.
How does one even find out what one wants to do?
I don’t know. I tend to just try to live and hope I come up with an idea at some point.
Yeah I’m currently trying to find something bearable that pays the bills.