Man I dunno what is going on lately. Sure I searched for a few things on “purpose of life” and those kind of things which might be the reason I am getting these recommendations.
It’s weird though that millions of people are struggling with the same things I am currently struggling with. I’m at a point inbetween I shouldn’t be depressive. I shouldn’t feel bad at all. My job is great, have a wife and now my house is almost “done”. I don’t have kids (yet). Life couldn’t be better… but now there is this “but”.
I have absolutely zero energy. Even if I love climbing and would like to start again, I rather just scroll through youtube or stare at a wall. I noticed that I personally have zero problems in my life but all the people around me have problems that I feel like those are my problems too.
Best friend of mine is alcoholic. Because of him I search so much shi.t about how to deal with alcohol problems. My wife somehow can’t get shi.t done either. She failed her exams after 4 years studying and now is jobless but starting a new job next month. My brother is a leech. He doesn’t care about my mom and our grandma but now that my mom is getting the “house” he is asking to help her with fixing it up etc… he just wants the house one day. That is going to be a huge fight in 20 years already. My coworkers keep crying about how stressful work is. I love my job and I have no stress because the tasks are easy and dunno all I do is drink coffee at work cause I am bored after 4 hours while my coworkers struggle to get done in 8 hours. My mom and uncle aren’t talking with each other anymore - he was an a*shole the whole life towards her. I only know what I have seen and it was bad. I can’t confirm her stories, but I assume they gotta be true from what I have already seen myself happen.
TLDR: So much drama around me that it is eating me up and if I wouldn’t have contact with other people I would be so happy.
Really I think the best thing in life is try to avoid people and be on your own. They only cause drama. Imagine if I had just bought a van and drove up to sweden 10 years ago instead of buying a house I could just escape these people, even though I love all of them.
I feel so drained by the drama around me that I can’t do what I love. I use to play video games 12 hours a day and not give a f. If my future me could have told me when I was 10 years old playing World of Warcraft was when I peaked in life I wouldn’t have believed him. Okay that was kind of harsh, I achieved a lot and worked a lot for what I have now and I am proud of me but the people around me are lost and that makes me depressive.
I can’t watch my brother be a leech, my mom and her brother fighting, my wife not being able to work in her “dream” field anymore duo to failed exams at the age of 30. She is literally starting from scratch with nothing at 30 years old. My alcoholic friend… man I feel sorry for all of those people.
I really know that I am lucky to be in my position. But I feel like I can’t enjoy my “luck” or what I “achieved” because of everyone being so “bad” in life around me… it makes me feel sad I can’t celebrate anything I achieve. It’s frustrating going to work finishing a huge project and all my coworkers bitc.h around: “Great now we gotta repeat this til we retire.”… I can’t get home from work and be happy cause my wife is rock bottom. I can’t go to my mom cause she has problems. My alcoholic friend is a problem. I have no one to go to and be “happy”.
I wish I had a few people in my life that have no problems and just enjoy life. That would actually be my wife if she didn’t fail exams because she is the best person I know. I really wish she gets a better oppertunity.
My youtube feed is full of videos of being a better person, learning how to give 0 fcks, “mindset changing life” etc. The whole search feed is screwed and thinks I am a wrecked person eventhough I am just searching and googling for stuff about other people.
You know what the problem is. There are things you could do which make you feel better, and you’re not doing them.
Other people aren’t you. Don’t expect them to be.
Other people have freedom. They’re free to fail as well as succeed.
The fact they are failing is sad. And that will make you sad, if you hold on to it. But they aren’t you. They are free to fail. And you can’t stop them from making the mistakes, you can only support them in improving and recovering once they learn, if they ever do, that those mistakes must be avoided.
A Buddhist monk was talking to a layperson who was seeking comfort. The layperson had experienced grief, as all people do. The monk said: “how heavy is that boulder?” And the layperson said, too heavy to lift. The monk replied: “it weighs nothing if you don’t pick it up.”
If you don’t want to be around an alcoholic, you might have to eventually cut contact with your friend. Not all alcoholics get better.
If your wife is someone you don’t want to have kids with, as you don’t trust her to be able to succeed in work, you might have to eventually consider ending that relationship. Not all people can secure suitable employment for their families.
The treasure is in your own mind. No one else can despoil until unless you let them. Be the person that makes you happy.