I genuinely can’t tell you what my thing is. Other than that deep down, I know the feeling and know that I have one. This has happened to me before. I have felt this feeling. I just don’t remember what about. I’ll keep you guys posted if I remember.

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My hill is that some people have made it far enough to realize they should do that with a neurotypical child but will hold back a neurodivergent one, especially if there’s some intellectual / cognitive disability in the mix. A looot of parents come to terms with having an ID kid by picturing that they’re going to stay their cute sweet baby forever. It can result in a lot of messed up situations and a little public masturbation is the least of them. I actually really enjoyed the “tard Wrangler” greentext despite the thoroughly stigmatizing language just because he actually completely nailed the experience of working those kinds of jobs. I’ve definitely worked with a few people who have some questionable traits but who do, in the end, have the patients best interests at heart, and it’s not hard to see how the job itself has kinda fried them a little. That anon is probably one of the coworkers I would make the Picard holding his head gesture at a fair amount but who definitely wouldn’t hurt a patient and in a heartbeat would jump into action helping me stop someone from smearing shit everywhere.

the only mental health thing I’m aware of being publicly available is commitments, and in most localities that requires an initial involuntary hold followed by evaluation and a hearing. and even that I think only counts for clearances, gun rights, and possibly licenses concerning public safety such as doctors, social workers, etc. rando employers should not be able to access that info afaik (this is a summary of the relevant part of the speech I give to patients when they ask if they want to change their status to involuntary and what the process looks like if the doctor disagrees that they need care, what their rights are in that situation, etc.). even with that idk that they can see what you were committed for just that you were. I’m not sure how hard they’d have to dig to get access to the mental health board evaluation that led to the commitment. I talked my way out of a commitment after an involuntary hold and have had a few incidents since where I even talked myself out of the hold to begin with and it never even affected me getting licensed (fellow cluster b PD here, hiiiii).

a more useful question would be,“out of all the ways you could make money why are you thinking about this one?”

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tbh I’ve just accepted that superstitions are part of the human psyche. I don’t believe in “chi” in the sense of some energy that can be measured but there’s definitely some kind of pattern recognition in the human subconscious that’s processing the flow of the environment around them and the people in it that way. And a lot of cultures worldwide have longstanding traditions that guide the way they deal with that both in the sense of soothing that part of the subconscious but also trying to address whatever threat or goal in the environment that that pattern recognition is trying to draw attention to. I really enjoyed “Feng Shui Modern” by Cliff Tan if you want a really great explanation of concrete ways in which principles of that practice tend to help people feel safer in a space. He talks about things like the most common paths people take take through rooms, wanting to have your back against something solid, and not liking having beams and lights hanging directly over your head.

And personally I just try to keep the less concretely beneficial things to fun cultural traditions and other stuff I can connect with people around and avoid things that have been like, objectively disproven by modern science in some way or that would be specifically harmful to some specific circumstance / situation. So like carrying around an evil eye talisman is fine but using an herbal remedy that’s been found to be harmful is not. And I find it’s also helpful to think of it less in terms of specific effects / outcomes such as hexing, and more in terms of good energy / bad energy or good luck / bad luck. So the evil eye ward isn’t protecting me from some specific thing, it’s just a general hope that I’ll avoid toxicity in my life. And there’s a big mindfulness component to these things too; the talisman is also a reminder to yourself to avoid negativity and try to put positivity out into the world around you.

I just got certified to teach mental health direct care workers to talk people down and how to safely restrain people when they are still posing a threat to themselves and others and that’s a goal I set almost a decade ago and it’s really taking some time to set in that I actually did it. I went from spending 3 hours on a state hospital floor with my back locked up with EPS after getting twice the normal agitation meds to teaching in under 10 years. What the fuck.

Oh hey! I started writing a porn about that.

I began my psychiatric nursing career working as a behavioral technician on a unit for criminally insane men. I worked there for two years and was even promoted to lead tech in charge of making the assignments for all the technicians for the shift.

Other shifts and other units were sending staff members to the ER at least every few months related to aggressive incidents. Not us. Only thing was a guy had a stroke near when I was starting and while I think the job did do it to him, I think it happened over the many years before I worked there.

Two months before I left I sustained the worst injury I ever did at that job taking care of criminally insane men …I shut my own finger in a door.

I was rushing too much while grabbing hygiene / shower supplies for a guy one morning. Big heavy solid wood heavy latch and hinge with a long metal strike plate running top to bottom psych ward door. The tip of my finger swelled up twice as big, the nail turned black and eventually popped off. Looked weird as shit for a few months.

Meanwhile one time I was helping separate two guys where one was trying to bite the other guys face off and I kinda blacked out for most of it but I do remember seeing the other guys jaw working trying to gnaw at the guy I was holding. Anyway apparently there was a point where I was under both of them on the floor because like three people came into the restraint room while I was with face-bitey to ask how I was and as the adrenaline wore off it turned out I was a little scuffed up and bruised up…

But holy shit did shutting my finger in that door hurt so damn bad I legit thought I was going to lose the finger and it took over a month to heal!

I mean he’s doing better than my parents.

Where tf was this when I was a kid?

right now? you’d have to find me first, and I doubt that it’s worth it for you. There’s also other logistics you would have to figure out that also probably wouldn’t be worth it for you.

at my place of work? The environment is so controlled that you just… probably won’t succeed. Most people also don’t even notice the stuff I’m actually doing to maintain my safety. The biggest thing is before the patient is even on the unit making sure there’s nothing in the environment they can hit me with that would really hurt. One advantage I’ll admit I have over the cops is that I’m 99.99% certain that no one in the environment has a gun (the 0.01th time was the night the ER really fucked up*). But there’s also no corded devices, no IV poles or oxygen tanks to hit me with. Even stuff wide / long enough to get some leverage with like a dinner tray is made of styrofoam. Even the shitty coffee is lukewarm instead of boiling (sorry but I do what I gotta do).

Most people also don’t notice that if they’re even anxious I’m usually between them and the door or even if I’m letting them have a sightline to it for their own peace of mind I’m still closer. If they’re actually mad I’m definitely between them and the door and whether or not they can see them I have at least one person for backup right outside the room, possibly 2 or more. I’m really just not that worried about it and I’d rather focus on what I can actually practically do to resolve the problem. Is there some comfort measure I can help with like warmth, cold, food or water? I’m not giving you a steak dinner for cussing me out but I can probably do peanut butter crackers and some water if you’re just hangry. Do you wanna talk about your legal status and what the judge is actually going to look for while deciding whether or not to commit you? Do you just wanna yell at somebody for fifteen minutes? I can do most or all of that with some detail-based caveats.

If none of that works and you’re actually trying to hit me or even yourself (but talking does work like 85-90% of the time) there’s always haldol and if that doesn’t work I’ll try geodon and so on and so forth down a decently long list of options until you’re either better able to control yourself or unconscious. If I have to lock you in a room or strap you to a chair until it hits I can do that too (the paperwork sucks tho). If you’re on something real wild like PCP and can’t be sedated without respiratory collapse you’ll probably have to be detoxed in an ICU probably strapped to a bed and possibly intubated. But the confidence that I have the resources to handle most of the possibilities and that I have people to call if I can’t makes it a lot easier to not overreact to being called slurs and just focus on what the actual safety risks are in the situation and what actually needs to be done to resolve the problem.

On the street? When I’m not in my scrubs I dress like a hobo and it’s very obvious that whether or not I’m actually a tweaker (unless you count caffeine which is technically a stimulant) I’ll probably lose a fight but I also will be taking either a testicle or an eyeball with me and you may or may not get a choice. Again, probably not worth it for you, probably not even worth interacting. Most people don’t interact beyond polite mutual acknowledgement of our existences. My scrubs only barely cover my overwhelming feral raccoon aura.

Here’s real footage of me when admin comes through with our traditional consolatory pizza and cookie offerings:

Me: downvoting comments that technically follow logically but are annoying, pedantic, and lack important context.

Have some pride! It’s only an insult if you let it be!

~ Sincerely, a certified redneck <3

Yeah but last week the mean bitchy old Lady at my job who’s mad nobody works as hard as her (it’s because she works too damn hard) who I thought hated me told me she’s surprised that I’m only 30 because I have a lot of wisdom and I’ve never been more honored. It almost makes it OK that caffeine gives me hangovers now and I need a nap before I do the dishes on my day off.

I was actually really waiting for the wisdom to kick in and while I don’t really feel like it’s kicking in people are starting to listen and they trained me to teach the “how to talk people out of hitting you” class and I’m actually pretty hyped for that.

“I have it worse”

and

“Naaah bro that’s not that weird / dumb I do that too”

Are very close sentiments at face value and it can take a fair amount of finesse to get something to read as the second one.

Training to be a peer recovery mental health specialist helped a lot if any of you are interested in learning some better techniques. It’s mostly timing and choosing the right parts of the story to tell.

I feel like the specific price is something you figure out after you figure out how much it costs to run the thing and no, I had not gotten that far yet. How much do your accounting services cost?

Tbh this is as far as I’ve ever gotten with this idea but I appreciate the tip if I ever did actually try to implement it! Edit: had to look it up but probably actually. My fuzzy original thought was one of the many services my various employers have used to verify my license, but these seem more consumer focused which is probably better suited to this use-case.

Obviously. You’d only use it if you specifically wanted to back up what you were posting with a medical license or status as a public figure or whatever. This isn’t a service targeted at the average shitposter.